As my last post indicated, yesterday was a rough day. Today was not much easier. Somehow I have to learn how to dress this post baby body. I really don't think, that no matter how lean I get, that I will be able to wear the clothes of my past. That is fine it is just that I have never been all that great at finding MY style.. and now I am supposed to do it at new stores (no more juniors section for me!), with a kid (this means less time and more distraction), and much more limited funds! Sigh.
This is part of being a mother, right? I am reading a book about how to be a better Family Manager. It talks about how healthy families run like a business, with a lot of added love. The author talks about how the manager of the home makes hundreds of decisions a day. Some that have to do with finances, scheduling, etc. I am not sure I was quiet prepared for all that. Now I do think my parents did a great job at teaching me to make decisions and being confident in them, but MAN do I make a lot of them, and it can get pretty overwhelming if I look at the bog picture. You know the one where Sweet Love still thinks I am the most wonderful delight, and we have raised a wise young man. You know, the end goal. It is shocking. I can manage, but sometimes it is a heavy load.
Anyway, today was better, but still rough. I bought so many beautiful veggies at Sam's. My cart was a delight of color and shapes. It was so pretty. I kinda can't wait to eat it all!
Oh, I did read that my severe mood could be a result of detox from all the veggies. Not sure I am one of those 'Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds' types... so it is not easy for me to write it off as just detox. Well, that and I feel like the true detox I have been doing on my heart and soul is the past months of deep daily cleansing in God's Word.. the Bible.
So I leave you, my friends, with a thank you for all the support. I will finish my little watermelon creation**, and go to bed. Better choice than wine, right? Oh, and tomorrow is my green fast day! Wahoo! I did these last summer and I really liked them. I think I need one about now!
**My watermelon creation you ask? I scooped out all of the meat of a watermelon in to my blender, than I ran the rind through my juicer, then poured that juice into the blender as well. lightly blended it up, and I am drinking it down! I love it, better than watermelon the normal way. You see, I actually like the part of the melon that is right on the rind the best. So this way, it is like that is all i am eating! LOVE! (I should say, I did it this was because the inside of melon has lots of organic water and fiber, and the rind has lots of chlorophyll which is apparently helpful in making amazing quality blood, and who doesn't want that?)
2 comments:
Girl I just read your last couple of posts..sorry i'm behind. You know " Momma always said there would be days like this!" LOL! I'm sorry your having it so rough lately. I'd say your definately in a valley of this roller coaster called life. :) I wish i had some earth shattering advice for you...:) Being probably 20 years your senior i will tell you one little phrase that has helped me through many trying times in my life. "This too shall pass" Such a simple phrase....too simple really to solve all your problems but sometimes just knowing that what you are going through will not last forever , that there is an end helps. Know too that your 'little Lord' will never be that age again. Find a way to truly enjoy this age with him because when he's 20 and you look back at this time your gonna wonder what it was you were so upset about. And if only you had it to do over......learn to live in the moment. Dont' try to do tomorrow right or next week just worry about the moment your in. Hugs! Jinx!
I must say you are going what you are going through is totally normal I think for most moms :) I also think our world socially is not very good about preparing us to be mothers. I mean.. our mothers did the best the can, dont get me wrong.. but the world influences us so much when we are growing up.. its almost like someday becoming a mother is a second thought....and because of that we are never really taught the honest true and crazy life of being a Mom.. what it does to our bodies (belly buttons the size of doughnuts after birth) and all the other things that happen to us.. ... we are also never really exposed to or taught the emotional roller coasters that we go through :)
I struggle with my wardrobe and it seems my holding pattern now is that I refuse to by anything until I get back into my "smaller clothes" the ones I was wearing this time last year. We will get there... remember it just takes time :)
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