Accepting That This is Me

I have been thinking a lot about the things that I really do want to change about myself. How I want to be a better ME over the next 12-18 weeks. It has been difficult because so many things I don't think I can change, and frankly, some of them I don't need to. Let me explain.

I had a conversation today with a great girl that said when she turned 35 she finally accepted that 'This is Me'. Not, oh, so sad, this is just how I am, I can't change it. But rather, this is who I am, and I love me, I don't want to be anyone, but the best me. Quite revolutionary to me.

My mom always wants to be blond. It just is not a look that works for her. She has never accepted that God knew what He was doing when He made her a brunette with amazing red highlights and incredible curls to boot. Instead, she has always looked at the Loni Anderson's of the world, and wanted to be them, missing the incredible beauty in who she is. Get it now?

Sure, I would like to be less scatterbrained. But you know what? Part of the fun of me, is that I can be spur of the moment and have loads of fun. If I had it all together, I am pretty sure that fun and excess would not be in my list of things to do. I would like to have some strategies to keep my scattered brain in check, but I want to find a way to embrace it. God did make me crazy enough to excite my laid back, never excitable husband!

So, things like having thicker thighs than my hips, are just part of me. Sure I can make them better, but I am always going to have nice, full legs. I am always going to be 5 foot 5. I am always going to have super curly brown hair. I am always going to have stretch marks. I am always going to forget things, and look totally silly because I trip over flat ground. These are things I cannot change. These are things that I want to accept as me, and be HAPPY about them.

The things I can change: The way I react to forgetting the 100th thing that day, fear of failure... Lets just work on that those for the moment! Haha!