Sugar my friend, my enemy

So, I have been on a week long binge on sugar, and I could NOT feel crappier! Imagine that?

I am ready to go no sugar till Christmas, well, I might have to find a way to eat a treat at our annual cookie exchange, but I do NOT want to have a free for all binge. It just hurts to hard in my heart and in my body!

I hate that sugar has such a hold on me. I hate that. What am I to do? I feel like I am some crazy freak that can't get her act together. How do I enjoy an occasional sweet treat, and NOT binge?

I remember my 9th and 10th grade years. School was always really hard for me. I am painfully shy and just don't like people anyway! They rarely are worth the effort I have to put out. Soooo, you can only imagine how much I enjoyed lunch. The majority of my most painful memories of my school years happened at lunch time. Joy, right? Anyway, I remember how I never felt like I had enough clothes, or the right clothes. My parents gave me an allowance that covered EVERYTHING I needed, that included hanging out with friends (who needs those?), lunch money, and even my school clothes. So, since I was in charge of the $$, I would buy a Dr Pepper and a Nutty Buddy for lunch. It was only a $1. 'Real' food cost like $3-$5. I would save up to $20 more for clothes and still have just enough energy left to make it through track practice! Can you believe that? I do believe my reliance on sweets to get me through a rough time was planted in that time. Time to change that, what do you think?

OK, tomorrow, I am READY to kick it up a couple of notches. I am struggling to keep up with my 100 miles by Christmas, and I really want to lean up a little bit more, and just plain be ready and healthy to start my 5th time to train for a half marathon I have YET to finish! All this to say, I will be taking measurements and a 'before' picture tomorrow. I am so ready. I can just feel the joy of goals accomplished just out of reach, and I am SO ready to jump up there and TAKE it! Wahoo!