Starting to feel the fire

I have been searching for the fire for what feels like a year. You know, the one that helps you kick it up like 10 notches, and actually start seeing REAL results? Not the kind that keeps you staying the course but the kind that blows you out of the water. ( I have this staying the course down pat, thank you.)

For about 6 years I have been bemoaning the 'loss' of my very fit, lean healthy self I had when I first got married. I worked REALLY hard to get there, and even remember saying, "NEVER again will I work that hard, because I am just going to keep the ball rolling." But then, enter sweet snuggly newlywed hubby into my bed and the 5am workouts did not look as appetizing as snuggling up to my new hubby. Then the realization of how completely broke we were, coupled with him STILL not having a job, then buying a house (after he got a job of course), new cars (paid for in cash, we are Dave Ramsey freaks!), and a baby, and well, again is here.

That is fine. I am up for it. I have a whole new set of challenges. I have a full time job as a mom, wife and woman to work around. But I am not afraid to get up at dark thirty to make that happen. I am ready to be the example my child needs, and the wife I always wanted to be for my hubby. I mean, when your 2 year old is running up and down the yard in 98 degree heat squealing, "Look Mommy, I go for run like you!" How can you NOT know that what you do speaks louder than what you say??? (He has also tucked my iPod band under his arm and said "Mom, I go running now, see you later!" Kills me how cute he is!)

So, I will get some meals cooked up, clean ones of course, and eat as well as I can. I have the very large stumbling block of three sets of family to visit in the next 5 days, but once that is over, I am fully committed. I just NEED to lift weights, jump rope, and be sore and tired. I am desperate for it.

After all.... Just because you know what to do, doesn't mean you do it. I just gotta apply what I know. It will take work, but I have time, and want, so just gotta do.