Let me be brave in the attempt

I think that shall me by new mantra.

Now for the thoughts that spun off from there!

I HAVE to run some long races soon. I HAVE to do something other than just 'get skinny'. That is just not me. Sure I want to wear smaller clothes, but to put all my energy into wearing smaller clothes? I am more than that. I am a woman, I am an athlete, I am a mom, I am a wife, I am a runner. Does the workout I do now, reflect that? NO. No wonder I am bored silly. No wonder I am dragging my tail around. No wonder I am discouraged. I need a physical goal, and not a pair of 6 jeans from college that I probably wouldn't fit right anyway, BECAUSE I AM NOT THE SAME WOMAN!

OK, that is it. I am sick and tired of focusing on losing weight, ONLY. I need something else. After I spend some quality time with Sweet Love tonight, I will pick out a race to train for. I will still lift weights, because I LOVE muscles, but instead of just getting into the gym and half a$ running, I am going to TRAIN for something. To have a real goal in site that is about something deeper than pretty clothes. The best part, pretty clothes will come out of it, but I will be so much more!